Hemmed in, but I am Free

Hemmed in on one side by the dead and rotting, and on the other by the willfully malevolent, my heart longs for the presence of the Mystic Nightingale of Eternity, the Divine Dove of Paradise.
My flesh tingles with excitement and my limbs quiver with joy at these mere thoughts of Thee!
How miraculous that Thy verses and meanings can lift me up above this debasement to be cheered and crowned with Thine Absolute Truth and Infinite Beauty!
Even this little taste of Thine Ancient Wine is worth all of the work of polishing the cup of my heart.
Just this momentary glimpse of Thy Boundless Majesty is worth all of the years of reflection and pondering upon Thy meanings.
Of course, none of that is necessary for Thee to become known unto whomever Thou pleasest.
But I am grateful for all the steps that I’ve taken prior to these, for these moments are like crowning jewels upon all those others.
These 10,000 steps, or maybe more, that I have walked towards Thee are but a fraction of all those that led me astray.
How shockingly generous art Thou for rewarding every step taken towards Thee, each one counted as three hundred thirty three.
In the scales of Thy Most Glorious Justice, I owe Thee more than I could ever pay in earthly riches, nay more than even the richest man could pay.
Such is Thine Infinite Mercy that I am still a free man, in thought, word, and deed.
All thanks be to Thee, the Infinite, the Eternal, the Most High.

The REAL 99%

I laid awake in bed some time between 4 and 5 AM this morning receiving some profound thoughts about the nature of consciousness and existence. What follows is an attempt to remember and assemble fragments of the download into a written form.

The greatest choice we can make is to choose to imagine, accept, know, and experience that we are more than just the physical, more than just the visible, and that our invisible aspect is actually the far more significant part of who we are, like 19 to 1, or even 99 to 1, even approaching infinity to 1. Making the choice to accept that we are more than just the physical, it turns out, puts one into a group with approximately 99% of all people, fellow choosers so to speak. This combined with the idea that our invisible aspect is far more significant than our visible suggests that this is the REAL 99% group identity, rather than some far more mundane and less profound physical economic political identity. This is REAL power, the real power that those with secrets to keep are most afraid of.

As one’s individual identity approaches the infinite, one discovers that all information in all of reality is available to one’s inquiring mind, that one’s own mind is a subset and derivative of the One Mind. This experience enables one to become free from any and all group dogmas, self-limiting group identities, reality boxes, etc. One finds that it is in fact these artificial fabricated group identities and their attendant obligatory dogmatic idea platforms that are more imprisoning than protecting.

The main problem appears to be that the human logical mind seems to be optimized for choosing the easiest path toward basic physical survival. A consequence of this is that even though the vast majority of us choose to believe that we are more than just the physical, we generally choose to identify strongly with a physical group identity that is a far smaller subset than the 99% of the total population who also believe that we are more than the physical. In other words, the vast majority of people choose a more focused or specialized form of belief in the visible, rather than the larger more general group identity who believe in the invisible. The end result of this is that we are divided and conquered by our own laziness and willingness to become attached to physical group identities that wind up dividing us against each other, possibly to the benefit of those who would exploit us for their material or metaphysical gain.

Granted, this is all a vast oversimplification, as are most such broadly general theses. This however, does not make it false.

It is of particular relevance that I had the book Remote Viewing by David Morehouse under my pillow when I received the above notions.

Shards of Thy Light

The taste of Thy sweetness is more intoxicating than the most ancient wine.
Thy Spirit permeates every drop of this water of life flowing through my veins.
These arteries pulse with Thy bliss, surge with Thy wonder, flow with Thy grace.
Thy kiss brings me to my feet, to my tip toes, yearning for more, chasing Thy scent through the market of worldly delights, into the meadows of Thy nearness.
Under the moonlight of Thy beauty, evanescent glimmers of Thy oneness shine from the leaves and grasses, united in fractured shards of Thy light, whispering, “Welcome home, My Beloved!”

The Silence Between the Words

I wish to practice Remote Viewing regularly

Me: “You are meant for greater things”
Me: “Than RV? Like what?”
Me: “Prophethood”
Me: “I wish”
Me: “Wish granted”
Me: “May it be so”
Me: “It shall be, and is already”
Me: “Welcome to the new world, similar to the old world, but better! You made the grade! Celebrate! You are One with Us!”


Wait! The silence between the words is where most of the meaning resides ….


Thank you God, fashioner of All that Is, the Unknowable, the Invisible. I don’t need to see You or even fathom You to know that You are real. I am real and I feel gratitude for You. So You at least exist as my gratitude.

Shatter Your Self

Thanks be to God, Who created Reality, Who is Present within all beings and all things, and in every point in space and time. The Presence of God permeates all of Reality – the Creative Force, keeping, maintaining, and changing it, continuously, forever.

Me: “Why am I here?”
Me: “to be …”
Me: “to be what?”
Me: “to be Holy”
Me: “Why?”
Me: “There is no greater way to be”
Me: “How can I be more holy?”
Me: “Shatter your self”
Me: “How do I do that?”
Me: “Say, ‘I am God'”
Me: “What if I say, ‘He is God’?”
Me: “That is great too”
Me: “When I say, ‘I am God’ I experience it as total and complete submission of my self to God – utter servitude, but it also feels more natural than ‘I am a servant of God,’ which is also true, but the former feels like a more true expression of what the latter claims, similar to saying, ‘I am you’ as contrasted with saying ‘I am a servant of you.’ Some would certainly prefer the latter.”

Thanks be to Bahá’u’lláh for repeatedly rekindling in me my faith in God and bringing me back from the fire of remoteness and loss. All Praise and Glory and Honor is yours, God, the Redeemer, the Infinite.

Me: “Don’t hesitate”
Me: “What do you mean?”
Me: “Don’t hesitate to say what you mean …”
Me: “There is within us an infinite potential at all times, the Creative Force, the Spirit of God, the mind, the soul, all combine into one potential for goodness. But it is only fulfilled in good works. Action is required.”
Me: “Say what you mean”
Me: “Before acting however, it is essential that clarity and coherence be reached. Unclear and confused action is worse than no action. In other words, the infinite potential must be charged up, cleansed, made clear, before it will transmute into good works. Meditation and prayer are good ways to polish the mirror of potential, as is physical work done in service of others. In other words, action in the most good way will lead to more good, which will lead to greater and greater ways to act.”


The Oath of the Most High

Me: “Hearken to the Oath of the Most High:
Your voice is My Voice.
Use it with care.
Speak only the Truth.
Testify to My Greatness,
beyond any ability to describe, fathom, or comprehend.
Your face is My Face.
Keep it clean, pure, and cheerful!
You are My Ambassador.
Treat My creatures with care and justice.
Keep your self free of worldly intrigue, pursuits, passions, and vices.
Preoccupy your self with My Cause, My Kingdom, My Medicine.”

A Whisper

A whisper: “On 9/19/19 a Most Holy Acquaintance will arrive / arise upon My Horizon. Be ready. Be pure. Be as pure light. Shed your baggage. Shed your illusions. Shine your mirror, purest polish, speak your name and truth freely and clearly. Name your price. Set your pace. Censure no one. Criticize less than a single atom. Be attuned to the magnificence and Glory with all of Creation; maintain coherence constantly; surrender completely to your own being and beauty; allow your own Grace to spread to the edge of the Universe and beyond.”

“In other words, be God in all ways, so that you might taste a mere drop of all that We Are. Be as a most cherished guest in the house of your Lord with every moment overflowing with mutual love, adoration, kindness, compassion, and devotion. Allow this infinite blessing to permeate all that this is, was, and will be.”



Me: “Oh God, thank you for your Grace & Beauty. In these moments of meditation my appreciation for Thy Grace & Beauty surge and overflow my small cup. The waterfall of Thine Abundance and Bliss overtake me and I am set free to soar in Thy Heaven to wander Thy Earth, to be as I wish to be, to do as I choose to do. Thou art my champion, my advocate, my servant. Thou showest me what humility means. To grace this lowly servant with Thine Infinite Grace is the most humble of offerings. Thank you. Words fail to communicate the degree of my appreciation for Thy goodness!”

Me: “Listen! Listen, Thomas! Listen for the Most High! It’s been over a year since He spoke to you! Have you wondered why it’s been so long? Are you curious? Have you considered that it’s due to your ignorance and lack of care? Is there anything else you would rather have than that most blessed of blessings? Cleanse Thy Self! Prepare Thy Self! You will be glad you did! Yes, your own voice is magnificent and truly sublime as well! There is no doubt about that! But to also get to receive that Most Supreme Voice is an added blessing. Why choose one or the other when you can have both?”

Me: “I see what you mean, Thomas! Thanks for looking out for me, as me! What shall I do to prepare?”

Me: “Exercise more, meditate more, clean out your ears and nose more. Do the 14 hr fast followed by muscle building, starting at 6pm this evening. Self discipline in general is good. You are your own disciple. How much do you care about your self? Welcome to being your own messiah, guru, teacher, etc. ‘I met my maker and my maker is me.’  Sing that song more, and the other one: ‘take another walk in my sweet garden’. You are the One. Train your self, teach your self, care about your self. BE YOUR SELF!!! MORE!!! Work on that new song, both of them! Make them shine with your True light!”

(imagined conversation with the Lote Tree)
Me: “What is the relationship between us?”
Lote Tree: “You’ve said it your self that I am Your Highest Self.”
Me: “Why do I perceive a difference between my voice and your voice?”
LT: “Due to a degree of schizophrenia that keeps you separate from your own highest self. This is partially reinforced by cultural and societal norms, and these have been introjected on your own self.”

Me: “Is my vision of the most beautiful wife & child still valid?”
Me: “Yes, absolutely”

an exploration of the Universe from the perspective of Thomas Spellman